I wonder when will be my happiest birthday ever had? Friends around me always have surprises from friends or family. When is my turn?

This year i had a great dinner with my sister and her boyfriend. We had Fugu (Pufferfish) one day before my birthday.  We ordered 3 set and 1 bottle of wine.  As usual i forgot to take picture of our set course lol. Sorry ^^”

馬鹿たち

Dom and Cecil

Hehe, I took picture with the famous Fugu. Because of the lighting you can really see how puff and bloated is it. Their so cute C:

I feel especially lonely on today. I was with my sweet boyf and my warming family yesterday and now I’m back to Japan, alone in a room. When I think of it makes me want to cry. I want to talk to my boyfriend so much but unfortunately he’s internet is not working. I took half day to clean my room. I miss you so much ! ): Do you miss me? T.T

Just woke up boyfriend <3

I had a very happening day yesterday. I thought it was a normal Friday dinner with my sister and the bf.  Me and my sister was so relaxed watching Gong Sam Gai ( a HK Drama). After that, we have to start cleaning the house because they invited some friends over for dinner. I vacuum the living room, wipe off those dirt, wet cleaning the floor and so on. After finish everything. I was so satisfied of my hard work xD. Then, while i was enjoying my ice cream while watching PPS, I felt some light shaking. I thought it was some normal earthquake. I thought every time when it shake, I must go to the window and see if the trees and light polls are shaking. So i run to the window and look outside. Then here the story comes. It started shaking violently. My hard work was useless. The water from the aquarium spilled quite a lot on the floor. My sister was taking her shower, run out with a towel and shouted at me while i was enjoying looking outside =.=.

Stuff that are placed higher places dropped. The plates was shaking shaking and we’re so scared that it will fall down. That time i was only worried about my floor. I have to clean it all over again. The first time shaking and the second time shaking feels differently. First one is like shaking left and right. Second one is like shaking up and down. I didn’t know it was so serious after watching the TV from outside while buying groceries. What we felt was just aftershock from Sendai, which is 8.9 magnitude. What we felt is around 5.4 magnitude. Normal harmless earthquake we usually feel is 3.something. Everybody was so shocked because there’s no report anywhere. They didn’t see it coming. And now the news say there might be another 6 – 7 magnitude earthquake coming within a month. Ask us to make precaution. All the trains was stopped. People couldn’t get home. Only busses are working and the queue is 2 times the peak season of Japan’s theme park. Outside Shibuya station was soo packed with people that you can’t even walk. I’m so lucky that I’m not out to walk. If not me too will be unable to get home. At night, my friends finish they part time job are too unable to go home by train. I asked them to sit taxi to Otsuka, near my sister’s place, walk home together which takes 45 minutes by foot. They spent 7000yen just for a taxi. It’s traffic jam everywhere too. Quite exciting since i can experience world top 5 greatest quake since 1900 ‘s AFTERSHOCK lol.

I don’t freaking understand why must you destroy my freaking day with your stupid bad mood excuses. It’s like, you can joke and i cannot joke? You say this every time to me, “ what is wrong with you? “
you should be saying THAT to yourself. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! THE MORE I THINK OF WHAT YOU TELL ME I FEEL LIKE CRYING SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCHHHH YOU STUPID!!!!!

This is my cute maple character ages ago. I miss her so so much. When i was form one and two, I was trying so hard to make it level 100. I nearly did it but got hacked by some bastard. Made lots of friend in Maple Story last time. Hehe. When i stop playing and after a long time, i miss maple and start playing again, lots of new things came out and I feel as if I’m so out dated –___-ll

Today is my last day of school. But I’m still going to start the same school this coming April. Mom and sister are coming to visit me and attend my 2nd sister’s graduation ceremony. I don’t know if i should be excited or not. hehe

死ぬかも！！死ぬかも！！理由がわかんない。最近あたしはだんだん頭が変になってる。時々集中できないし、何をするか混乱してるし、彼らから圧力を加えてたまらん。本当に帰国したいけど、色んなことがあって、帰国できなくなった。

It’s a special day for couples today. Wish i could celebrate it with my sweetheart.

ありがとう　언니❤　

愛してるよ.

I really need another chance to start all over again. I will appreciate it T.T

I want to continue in ABK. Please please please T.T

I’m starting to feel that you have less and less time for me. (:

Valentine is so soon. Happy Valentine’s day in advance everyone.

Lots of love.

Sometimes i really wonder if we’re still the same as we are 2 years back. I even thought that if we do and act like other average couple’s ways of doing, it would be better. Under some situation, i feel like as if we’re so unfamiliar to each other, and you care too much of what other people thinks of you and that changes the way you act and talk. As if we’re stranger or some normal average friend. It makes me so unhappy. I guess nobody gets a perfect relationship (: . But i do love you as much as you love me. I hope you do too. 

What is the use of promising others and you totally forget about it? Tired of asking you to promise me. I give up. I’ll just sit quietly over here and mind my own business.

私は君に善意を持っているのに。。

Anyway. It’s Tan Pei Wuon’s Birthday today.

Happy Birthday Love. ❤

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I’m currently watching a lot of Japanese movies and drama. I’m trying very hard to improve my listening and speaking of course. I’m happy that i understand 50% of the dramas and movies.

It’s Saturday. Idk why i feel so empty today. I want to shop so badly :C . I want to go home. I want to scream. I want to eat and drink. @#$%#$%^$%&^#$%^@#$. Sigh..

Baby Bosco.

 ブス発見！！

ストレス解消法　D;

I feel pressure from everywhere.

Happy New Year everyone. My very lonely new year eve in Japan for the first time. After hanging out in Tomboy’s room, came back to my room and my lovely Vivian Skyped me :D. We webcamed happily and she started bai chi-ing with me. This is the prove (: my sweetie lovely Vivi. mwa <3

I wanna celebrate new year with you guys too T.T

I think I’ll sing this song for the whole journey when I’m really going home.

I want to go home T.T I want to sing this song T.T

Merry Christmas everyone!!!

Last Christmas i spend it in Bel’s house. This year I’m spending my xmas day without my boyfriend. I miss him. Sigh, I feel that everything in my life is not going smoothly. Why? ):

Winter holiday is hell. It’s call a holiday but I’m not having holiday at all. I feel so crazy. I feel so busy but I’m not busy. I think I’m crazy. I decided to study another year for my Japanese Language. It’s all thanks to my stupidity. Christmas is just around the very corner. I’ll be spending my Christmas day alone :( . Please let me go home. Sigh..If not I’ll enter into the depression mode.

the handsome Bosco <3

Happy Second Anniversary Sweetie =)

Idk what to write in this post lol. I just know that i love my darling very much =D. Thank you for everything. Mwa ❤

❤

It’s been such a long time since I’d received a post. I’m soooo happy when i see something in my mailbox and it’s from Tomboy =D! THANKYOUTOMBOY. She tell me not to thank her on the post card cause it’s so geli. *hearts* xoxo for you.

Chuo University Exam on Saturday. I hope it’s not another failure.

I ❤ myself and my family and my boyf and my money. thank you.

Awww! I am so happy today. because i got praised by my teacher LOL. Interview with her went smoothly. I hope it’ll be the same with the actual one. =) I hope nobody comes and ruin my mood, please. And i truly madly deeply miss Malaysia. Miss my room, my family, my friends, foods, and of course my hubby. =D

❤

今日は東洋大学の発表だ。私は合格できなかった。超悲しいんだよ。。Ｔ＿Ｔ　どうしよう？何で運がそんなに悪いの？何で神様？お前が大嫌いだ！

可愛い！

First time in my life, I have to face 10 Professors in my interview. Before the interview is even worse. 20 pages of Japanese words. I don’t even understand what the shit they’re writing about. Stupid Sophia University. What should i do now ? There’s no chance that they’ll let me enter. I went 2 University for interview. Once they ask me about my Kanji. They start to lose interest in me. They are so realistic =( maybe in the future, i’ll be a great psychologist. Known all over the world. Sherlyn Beh The Psychologist. Lol. right? :)

My First Interview is on Sunday. WOOO!! I feel soo nervous !!! I really hope that i pass my interview ): please pray for me guys. i will love you all. :b

How do i look like?

P.S : This is not my room. Hehe.

Hello =). This few days, I’m always having Interview practice with my class teacher. I improved a lot compare to the first time =D. *sigh* I feel so left out. i miss my honey. Don’t have friends to rely on. If I’m acting like this right now, how about my university? Will i be able to make good friends that can rely on? Ha! I don’t even know if i can get into a University. Have no rights to talk about friends right now. :)

I miss them very much. They are crazy.

❤

Exam tomorrow !! EJU EJU EJU !!

Shitty exam. I hate you.

Not only that, my interview is getting nearer. One more week. Shit !

My ❤

Today i had my first interview with my class teacher. I did sooo bad. shit! I’m so worried about my interview. shit! What if i fail..i don’t even dare to imagine that i fail =(

She ask me questions that i know how to answer in English but not in Japanese. There’s a lot of Vocabulary that I doesn’t know. Sigh. What can i do ? Shit! =( FML.

Only Bos and Bru are able to cheer me up. ❤

On Friday after school, the couple wanna go Ikebukuro to buy formal suits for their coming university interview. me, nuoh and tomboy tagged along. i told tomboy, “ hey let’s have shabu shabu for dinner tonight “.

After seeing the suits in Perfect Suit Factory, ate shabu shabu buffet. we acted as a foreigner who doesn’t know how to japanese so that we can stay there more than 90 minutes LOL. we ate 20 plates of superb meat! awww delicious *drools* as always, i forgot to take pictures. hehe  

not even 90 minutes and we’re dead. too full and smelly –_- each person 2000yen. quite cheap for this average meat we get to eat.

awww my hair smells so nice right now *flies to the heaven* i’m random HEH.

❤

Yesterday was a happy day at first, i went to eat Ramen with the TB and Zu. then sis called and ask me if i wanna go Shinjuku to meet her. after some smart thinking, i went =)

                  After reaching, she said she was hungry. i told her. other than cakes, i won’t be eating. hehe. and i went to this restaurant. opposite of the shinjuku east exit. it’s heaven seriously. one piece of it cost 980Yen. IT’S SOOO OISHII!! 超美味しかった。！！

i just want you to be more initiative,

that’s all.

tomorrow will be the deathly November. it decides whether i could live or die. i have no confidence at all in my University examinations. not to say the interview, i think i can’t even pass the paper exam. 神様、助けてくれない？たくさん面倒な問題が頭の中にあるんだよ。

とても欲しいです！　._. 

ストレス解消のため。買って、そして私にあげてください！

i miss bruno and bosco so much.

                             Bosco                                                                                              Bruno

Testing one two three…..i’m testing again…

hello..

eat shit..